My kind of town

There's probably two potential posts in here. Hell, there's probably five, but I'm going to try to do it in one. Why? Because I'm lazy. Deal with it.

I spent Christmas in sunny Las Vegas, Nevada. No, I'm not a gambling freak degenerate who disregards family and sentimentality to while away my holidays at a blackjack table. I'm a regular old degenerate who happens to have family in Vegas. My mom's whole family packed up and moved west when she was eighteen, and she stayed here to marry my dad. Everyone stayed out there, so every couple of years we spend the holidays under the neon lights.

My mom's family is white trash. There's no other way to put it, really. It's a fantastically dysfunctional family, full of emotional train wrecks--and I love every one of them. My uncle Fred (the gay one who doesn't pay taxes and gambles away all of his money, not the one who used to be married to my Aunt Liz but got divorced when he knocked up his daughter's teenage friend during a coke binge shortly before he went to prison but now hangs out with the family on holidays because he doesn't have anyone of his own) and I have a running joke where he tells me I've got more Vegas genes than Chicago--I drink, I smoke, I dropped out of college, I've been divorced, I like to gamble, I have bad credit, and I don't go to church. He's right, I think, and I'm not ashamed, either.

Here's the thing. My dad's family is great--I love them, and they love me. But they're all polished and ready for display, older kids getting doctorate degrees in history and kindergarteners who spout off Jesus-isms like junior Pat Robertsons. They're the easy kind of religious Republicans--they've never needed actual help from God or their government, so it's not hard to believe in either. Christmas in Chicago means Christmas carols, and the younger kids reading the nativity story from the bible, and egg nog, and board games. No alcohol, no drama, just your standard by-the-book Christmas.

My mom's side of the family is awful. At Christmas dinner, my cousin Laura (the one who just got divorced, then almost killed herself and totaled her car driving drunk, and then spent the insurance money on a boob job) got in a drunken screaming match with her mom (the one who just remarried her second husband because she had no place to live). My aunt Vicky (the one who just got married for a third time to someone she's been dating for about three months) and her new husband were not speaking. My uncle Ed (the one who got off of heroin and married his rehab counselor) and his wife (the ex-rehab counselor who got them both hooked on painkillers after she got a liver transplant) cornered my grandma and told her that they were sad it was going to be her last Christmas. (They were both high.) My aunt Sue (the one who's been in not one, but two, crystal meth comas in the past year and moved back in with her ex-husband so that she could afford her drugs, all of which seems to have aged her forty years) continued her lifelong habit of ignoring her teenage kids' obvious cries for help (my cousin Steph is pretending to be a lesbian at 15, and her brother Daniel is clearly actually gay and confused at 13) so she could attempt to flirt with my dad...

I could go on, forever, but here' s the thing--Christmas was a disaster by Chicago standards. Fighting, drunkeness, a poker tournament, more fighting. And at the end of the night, a bunch of us packed into a couple of cars and hung out at the casino until dawn. I loved it. No pretending to care about some fictional baby in a barn 2000 years ago. No forced politeness. No gushy sentimentality. We're a real family, not a Norman Rockwell painting. Sometimes we drink too much to have a good time. Sometimes we don't like each other. Hell, some of us don't ever like each other. We get together for the holidays because that's what people do. Most importantly, though, by cutting out the bullshit, the posturing, the overcompensation, we happen to have a blast, too. It's not normal. It's far from ideal. But it's a real family, a living thing with unsightly blemishes and bad breath. We love each other fiercely, in spite of the substance abuse and deviant sexual behaviors, in spite of the fact that my brother and I are the only ones who've even seen a university classroom, in spite of the fact that everyone is broke, in spite of the fact that we have to.

It's easy to love your family when they look like my dad's. Sure, I'd be embarassed to take my mom's family to church on Christmas day. But you know what? I'd be embarassed to take my dad's family to a casino on Christmas night--and y'all know where I'd rather be.